LET US BE!

So, Life is funny...heard that before? It comes up from behind you and knocks you down just when you are at your highest. Well, you should have known it was bound to happen. When you are that high, where else would you go? It's hard. Yes it is. No one said it was going to be easy. But what makes it easy is the faith you have. Keep believing in God and that he will make it all better.

Yes. We all have heard it before haven't we? How to keep having faith in God cause he will be there for you and save you from all life's hardest times. But what happens when it keeps happening? What happens when you really are happy for the first time in your life and life brings you down even after you've begged and pleaded with God not to let you down. Not this time. How can you still keep believing in God? How can you keep believing that He will not let you down?

Its not as simple as everyone says it is. You feel nobody understands the pain you feel cause they're all telling you how you'll get through it and you'll laugh at it someday. It hurts you even more when your closest friends can't really wipe your tears away. Its awful and you feel alone. But you know what you're not. Cause suddenly the phone rings and its him. You answer the tears wipe themselves away. They're gone. The smile on your face comes back broadening every second. He makes you smile and makes your life feel beautiful all over again.

He called yesterday and he spoke to me. It felt so nice to hear his voice. So nice to feel like I was in his arms and he was with me, loving me all over again. I missed him. I couldn't even remember why we weren't together anymore. We were so good, so pure and so happy. What went wrong? His exams? That's all. We could have gotten through it. We could still be happy.

The hope starts to fade and he calls. The memories seem to die and there we were creating new ones. The whats wrong with us? Why the hell aren't we together? Who can I blame? Was it him? Was it me? No? Then who was it? It's all controlled and planned from above right? Then why shouldn't I blame them high up there? It is ultimately their decision what happens down here isn't it?

I'm asking again anyways. God, if you can hear me, I am really in love with him. Will you please let us be together. I know he loves me. I feel it in my heart every time I hear his voice. You know I love him. What more do we need? I want nothing more than his love. Give it to me.

LET US BE LORD, LET US BE!